Hey. Woah, it's been a really long time since I've blogged. It's the year 2011.  My life is not happening  like i want it to. Sec 3 is a really a tough year for me. So many subjects and cca to cope with. SYF just passed like a month ago. We achieved a GWH. I never thought that we will even have a chance to get GWH. Oh well, seniors left to prepare for o levels. I really wonder how we can manage to survive without them. Is it even possible? 
Now, about church. Yes, let's just face it. I like you, ALOT. Well, more than you can ever imagine or think of. I've been texting you for like half a year maybe? Sigh, i really want to know what i am in your perspective. It never came across my mind that I'll end up texting for such a long time now. You're always giving me false hopes, and worst of all, awkward conversations. I think we've talked about everything that we can possibly think of talking about. I love the way you say goodnight to me almost everyday. I love it when it is obvious that you are showing your concern for me. I save all my messages from you, but deleted some one word replies. Please don't do that. It's really hard for me to start the conversation. I wish that you'll like me back. I really hope that you will. It's been 1 year and 4 months that I've liked you already. Sigh. How i wish, i really wish. So please do come true. I love it when you give me unexpected texts. I love it when you cheer me up when i'm feeling down, even though i can tell that you don't really know how to cheer me up, but i know that you're trying. I'm really sorry for always thinking that you're the only person that i can only look up to. I'm so sorry. Not that i don't, but i think that i'm getting too dependent on you. Well, this is my personal thought so yeah. Every time when i'm texting you, i will always have the feeling that in some way or another, i'm annoying you. Well, every girl will think that way. It is just so awkward when i see you face to face. Not sure if it's because i'm from a girls school that's why i feel this way, but yeah. I often see you peeping at me sometimes. It's just awkward when we make eye contact. I don't want it to be so awkward anymore. It's just not right. 
She told me that she have the feeling that you like someone. I trust her fully because she has been childhood friends with you. And this makes me have the assurance that she's right about what you are feeling. I cried like a mad shit that day, May 15, Sunday. How could i ever forget? I didn't even make sure that it's true. It felt as if i have been knocked down by a bus repeatedly. It just hurts so very much. Cell bonding is coming up next. I hope that everything will turn out fine. No other problems or anything awkward. I really can't wait for you to give me the sticky. Sigh, i really love you that (: 
Anyway, even you're not gonna be seeing this, i want to tell you that you've been one of my greatest friends  that I've ever had. Even if we don;t know about our future, i hope we'll still be great friends. Thank you in any way i can possibly thank you for (:  
Have great year ahead! (: